(12) Failure

You know as the saying goes, practice makes perfect? I certainly think so.

Welcome, November!

I have failed my driving test for the second time again. Not too sure what to make of it but I guess I could deal with it. I can't decide how is it worth the effort and having every test to cost a bomb. Well that's just life isn't it? Overused but failure is just another new start to get in touch with yourself and ask yourself the right questions again and again, and put yourself back up.

This isn't a worthy piece of art but a random wr(ant)ite-out. It's been a tough October so I hope this month will bring me more ease than it has already been. Decided to make do with whatever I had in hand so pardon me if it's not as it was intended. October's been a whirl with the exams but I'm glad it's over. The following pictures and items are a random depiction of my extremely average life for that month and the start of November that has passed faster than the wind.

From top: Saltwaters at the train station, finished bottle of Nutella, a friend's Yashica MG-1,
Peko-chan (Poko's love in chocolate form), home made Rosti meal, an afternoon in bed

It's hard to explain the kind of feeling where everything feels right, and in place.

I experience extremities in one day. I laugh really hard at jokes and feel mad emotional and upset about results I cannot attain at some points in life. I don't understand what's the real fuss but I guess exploring and understanding certain aspects about yourself can be rather liberating. Expression is key, and I'm getting a better hang of it overtime (taking it as a form of art I guess?).

Certain emotions like feeling ready and being aware of your current situation are highly underrated. How can we know when is the right time or situation to feel a certain way? Why do we need a state to dictate how we are supposed to feel? Stereotypes are just, but stereotypes. They create an illusion of a reality we need to observe but they aren't binding as they seem, as people think they are. The last thing I would want to go through is to be shackled down, mentally, by things I cannot fathom.

Have you understood you thoroughly then?